[12 May 2011] Thoughts on CSM

Hi everyone! Hope you are not dying of the heat these few days!

Just in case you are wondering, CSM refers to the combined sports meet that happens annually in HCI, with NYGH and HCIS participating as well. And this year's CSM is going to be happening tomorrow! (YAY!) Well, apart from the track and other events happening tomorrow, my CCA is going to perform drums early in the morning, with HC Wushu guys!

This year's performance is a totally different experience from last year's. Though we performed drums last year as well, things have changed drastically this year as many unexpected things happened along the way. Only with that, we had to have a selection based on our performance due to the overwhelming number of people we had on our side. (Okay not that many, I'm just exaggerating.)

Due to experience from last year, and much little communication between us and the guys, we were able to conduct training sessions pretty smoothly, excluding that time when there was a teacher who came down to ask us to lower our volume. Also much thanks to both sides' chairperson and vice-chairperson(?) who had dedicated time and effort to plan and prepare things for us.

This might be the last time we are performing on CSM due to shortage of members next year (I think). Hence I really want to put in my best for this performance. Honestly speaking, I appreciate every performance I have a chance to take part in, no matter is it lion dance or drums. There are already little opportunities for us to perform in the first place, no matter what, I will and I must take every performance seriously, for these are opportunities that may not come by again. I don't do well just to impress others, but to let others know that my CCA's existence and our capabilities. CSM is a time to show to all three schools that we have the ability to have a combined performance with guys within a few weeks and that we are not just a CCA that is boring and old-fashioned.

The reason of me posting this is to serve a reminder to my juniors and some seniors that tomorrow's performance is not just another just-for-performance performance, confusing? Okay, in simpler terms, it is not just a performance that we can treat it light-heartedly. As I said earlier on, this might be our last chance being able to perform during CSM and such opportunities may not come by again in the future, hence we should treat tomorrow's performance seriously and put in our effort to do it.

This is not to lecture or pinpoint anyone. But I seriously feel strongly that it is necessary that we put up a good performance tomorrow, not just for the audience, but for ourselves too. Let this be as a good chance to see how much we have improved from last year and how we can improve for the future performances. Let us treat this performance with positive mindsets and believe in ourselves that we can do it, we have been training for quite some time yeah! Let no things bother you all tomorrow during the performance and focus on bringing out the best in us in that short but important 3 minutes that we have.

After the performance, I wish that you all don't just forget everything that you all have learnt in the past 1-2 months and keep this precious memory in your heart. Think about all the happy moments that we have experienced with seniors and juniors, with our coach and as well as with the guys. Let it be a performance that you will be proud of to tell your friends and let it be one that will never be forgotten. Apart from the misunderstandings which might have occurred and not yet resolved, let us forge better friendships with one another and establish good relationships.

Though it might be late to post this a day before, but it's only till the eleventh hour that we feel so much about something and it's never too late to post your thoughts right! Sleep early tonight and sweet dreams! Tomorrow is the big day for the both the guys and us and let's make things happen the way we want it to be! JIAYOU NYDALT-DRUMS!! :D

God Bless! Pray hard and believe in Him!

[05 May 2011] Sometimes

Just as I was checking my Facebook today, I found out how my friend can get so disturbed and troubled over another friend of mine. They had quarreled after a silly rumor spread around about them. That was way back in March/April. Till today, she has not yet gotten over the matter, but she appeared as though she was fine on the outside. But deep inside, I know she's struggling every time we have to see him. We will be seeing him again tomorrow, and she has said that she needs courage to apologize, as a good friend, I really want to help her, but I'm not sure whether she will have the confidence and courage to do so.

Thinking of myself, many times I face problems and are unable to come up with a solution. Sometimes I will just be troubled by them and get really worried about them. Those are the times when I forgot that God will always be there for me. Those are the times when I was proud and turned away from God. This has not been happening only once, but countless times. I really want to be a godly Christian and obey His words and commands. But Satan has tempted me and caused me to fallen short of God's love.

But thank God, I have a bunch of brothers and sisters in Christ that have been constantly given me encouragement. I was having a really bad day yesterday, having screwed my speech and not being able to complete certain tasks. I thought I might just break down and cry. But I opened my inbox and saw the message sent by my youth group leader that really strengthened my faith with God.

Proverbs 2:6-8: For the LORD gives wisdom, and from His mouth come knowledge and understanding. He holds victory in store for the upright, He is a shield to those whose walk is blameless, for He guards the course of the just and protects the way of His faithful ones.

Praying really hard these days that God will give me the strength and lead me through all these things to be done.

Ending off, I still keep the friend of mine in prayer and hope that she can resolve this matter soon. :)

God Bless!